Passed NY Bar After Failing 7 Times!
I passed thanks to positive thinking and the law of attraction!
When I graduated law school, I hoped I would pass the bar quickly and get a law job right away. I was the first person in my family to go to college, and I wanted to pay off my school loans and most importantly help my family, who had sacrificed so much to help me get through school.
When I took the bar exam after graduation, I consciously tried to be optimistic, but looking back now, I had alot of negative thoughts in my subconscious mind. Most of these thoughts revolved around my bad experiences in law school and with lawyers in the NYC city area. I feared that passing would open the door to a miserable life working for vile NYC-area attorneys. I know that this negative thinking impacted both my studying and test performance, no matter how hard i consciously tried to pass.
A few months later, I received failing results from my first try. Consciously I was upset but not too shaken - everyone told me it was common to fail a test this hard, especially the first few times around. I had overcome many obstacles before and I told myself that passing the test would be no different. However, the state of my subconscious mind was much worse than my conscious mind could face. The fears I had about a NYC law career began to fester with a new set of negative thoughts - the fear, anxiety, and worry that no matter what I did, I would never be able to pass.
I took the test again and failed again. This happened over and over many times. My life revolved around taking the test: studying, waiting for results, receiving failing scores, analyzing my performance for some shred of information, something, anything, that could help me pass the next time around. This cycle of frantic activity born from fear and panic repeated again and again. The negativity and anxiety grew with each failing attempt, and became accompanied by new emotions - shame and embarrassment. I stopped speaking to people and being social to avoid discussing my failures.
I knew that I needed to end the cycle of failure. I talked with my family and decided that, no matter what happened, I would pass. As soon as I made this conscious decision to pass, things started to line up to help me. In retrospect, this conscious act was the turning point. My father's friend suggested that I take the NJ bar along with the NY one, because based on my previous NY results, I would have passed the NJ test if I had taken it before. I took a new type of review course that in many ways was more basic and built up my faith in my knowledge of the tested topics and my ability to write about them. I listened to a sermon teaching that God will help you accomplish things you never have before if you promise to help others in return. I prayed and asked God to help me pass the test so I could in turn help others, and the assurance of this prayer comforted me.
I took, for the first time, both the NY and NJ bars together. I failed NY by 5 pts, but I passed NJ! I was so happy that failing NY almost didnt matter - I had known only failure for so long that i cant describe how great if felt to pass NJ:-). Also, I had come closer to passing NY than anytime before. Getting sworn into the NJ bar was an incredible day for my family & I.
I prepared for the next scheduled NY test and even hired a tutor for the first time.
Unfortunately I failed again, this time by even more points. This is when things became really interesting. Through helping out family members with some legal problems, I began interning for an attorney. He was a great person who I ended up helping out on a major case. I didnt know anything about the area of law involved, but I taught myself and taught him things too, which impressed him because he had been practicing in this area for nearly 20 years! Looking back, I realize that I excelled in the case because I was extremely motivated to help the clients - so concerned that I refused to entertain any thoughts of self-doubt. I decided, with 100% conviction, that I would find a way to get them the best victory or settlement possible, no matter what. I didn’t realize it at the time, but this attracted toward me all of the information and resources I needed.
While interning with the attorney, it came time for me to take the NY exam again. The attorney reminded me of how great a legal writer I was, and how I really could pass the essay portion of the test. He reminded me of all the shady and incompetent licensed attorneys we had encountered, and that if they could pass the NY bar, then I could I! He told me that the key to passing the test was positive thinking - that the most important thing I could do to pass the test was to know - in both my mind and heart - that I had what it took to pass. For the first time, I made a decision to think positively and be really conscious of my thoughts, choosing to believe that I could and would pass. Knowing what I know now about the law of attraction, I realize this decision - this intention - made passing possible, and attracted toward me everything I needed to pass.
One night after studying, I watched a sermon on tv by Nassir Siddiki, where he taught that the time between when someone prays (intends a manifestation), and when their prayer is answered / manifested is determined by the level of their faith. He used the metaphor of time as a bridge, with the length of the bridge (how long it takes for the intention to manifest) determined by the level of faith. Thinking about the advice from my internship attorney and the ideas in the sermon, I realized that I had two limiting beliefs in my conscious and subconscious minds holding me back from passing the NY bar. First, I doubted whether I could actually pass the NY exam. Second, even when I could accept the idea that I could pass someday, I had major doubts, especially in my subconscious mind, that I could necessarily pass now, immediately on the next try rather than someday in the distant future. I decided to confront these limiting beliefs head on. First, I told my family that I had decided that I would pass the NY bar no matter what, even if it took me 100 more tries over the rest of my life. Second, I prayed to God and said that I released my faith and decided to believe that I really could pass NOW - that I consciously was choosing to be open to the possibility that I could succeed in the next attempt, not just in the distant future, but now. That prayer was a major turning point because for the first time, I planted the idea in my subconscious mind that the cycle of failure in NY could really end. I now know that overcoming limiting beliefs is a big part of using the Law of Attraction to manifest what you want, instead of unintentionally using the law to manifest what you fear and dont want.
I read online about a guy who had failed many times, and so wrote himself a fake email from the NY state bar with passing results, so passing could begin to feel more possible. He passed a short time later! I did the same thing for myself as I prepared for the upcoming bar. I took the exam and waited for my results. My choice to consistently think positively about my studying and performance on the exam - often in the face of conscious and subconscious negative thinking and anxiety and panic attacks - allowed me to study more effectively and perform more consistently and completely on each section of the test than ever before. I knew I was doing better while taking the exam and afterward. However, I still didnt know whether I passed or not - i still identified things that may have went wrong. Every other time I took the test, I obsessed afterward about whether I passed or not. However, this time as I waited for my results, I decided to 'let go' (i didnt realize at the time that this is a core law of attraction concept) of the exam results, and let go of thinking about whether or not I passed. I was able to do this because I decided to just trust God and myself that I would pass eventually, no matter what. While I had faith that I could have passed this time (I couldnt quite have faith that I definitely did pass, because I didnt know whether I did or not!), and I made a decision to believe and accept that I definitely could have passed this time, I decided to just trust that eventually passing was inevitable and to enjoy my life in the meantime no matter what happened. I know now that this energetically released my intentions from negative counter-intentions of fear and worry, and lined up the grading process with my intention to pass immediately.
A few months later, I got my passing NY bar results! It was one of the happiest moments of my life. The NY pass email I got looked just like the fake one I emailed myself for encouragement months earlier! In the months that followed, I began studying the Law of Attraction and the laws of Vibration and Correspondence, and I realized that the both the negative thinking that brought failure, and the positive thinking that eventually helped me succeed, were both examples of the Law of Attraction in action. When I succeeded, it was because I had finally focused my greatest tools of all – my mind and heart – in positive thought, emotion, and intention. For years I had studied the same review books and questions, but what needed to change were my thoughts, feelings, and heart. Once i changed on the inside, all of my studying, exam strategies, and performance fell into place, and everything lined up on the outside to make what I had only dreamed about reality