A Breakthrough in the Bathroom
Day in and day out I would fall asleep crying, thinking of all the things that were currently upside down in my life. I mean it was ALL upside down...my finances, my health, my career, my family relationships, and my spirituality.
It's no wonder I cried every night about it because these areas made up my entire life! There was no part of my life that was consistently positive or going the right way. The only consistent thing in my life was the fact that I would cry night after night because it was too overwhelming for me...where do I start? How do I change the way I have been sabotaging my life?
It took years for my life to end up this way and I was terrified about how long it was going to take to turn it all around.
My poor husband saw what I went through every night and quickly noticed it started to out pour during the days as well. Every little thing would cause an outburst or a stress fit...and he would receive it all because I would take it out on him. My poor husband also suffered the hurtful things I used to say about me and about himself. I would look at him as though it was his fault I was going through this...just typing this makes me want to cry...
One night after crying so much, my eyes were all swollen. I wen to the bathroom and took a good look at myself in the mirror and I started talking. I started telling myself positive things about myself and how inspirational I used to be before. It got to a point that I was so stressed and depressed beyond belief that my mind just started to force positivity out of my mouth on its own. It was as if my positive side took over to tell me something I needed to hear.
"Why are you doing this to yourself? Don't you know what you are capable of? Did you forget God is in your corner? Did you forget what you have accomplished in the past? Did you forget how strong you are!???? As those words came out, I started to feel a weight come off and a sense of reality. I have been so negative and negative self talking myself out of who I really was...it was time to take control of my mind and teach it to think positive!
My story may sound like I went through this years ago but actually, it all happened in the past two weeks. Since, then I have been able to be more positive and more clear in my thoughts and by doing so it has helped me think clearly about a plan of attack. I have learned that when you get into a negative spiral, you are at a stand still and won't do anything about whats going on in your life. Positive thoughts bring positive action...and stumbling across this positive thinking site may just be the thing I need to continue down my path of positive thinking!!